Office — One Bored Day

Lately I feel very bored at office. Well, who’s not gonna bored in office. but  the level of bored I mention here is…three times my usual bored. most of all maybe cause my salary not up yet. I’ve been in this company for 1 year and 7 months and no rise yet??? arghhhh…this company driving me mad. how come they r not giving attention to their employee’s prosperity. so, now i’m on my way to search a new one. Hope i can find one asap.

so today is friday, february the twelve 2010. and i think i’m beautifull enough today…let’s see : i use a pink shirt with motif : flower, and batik skirt ( this is the first time i show my feminime side by using skirt in office) : a very unique skirt. i wear my eye shadow, blush on, eye liner, lipstick…transform into a feminine and beautiful woman just to catch his attention. that damn difficult to understand man. just for him!!! and what i’ve got!!! he’s not even in office after lunch. arghhh…i’m really anxious about him. i want to know bout him more, i want to chat with him freely, but i can’t do it since i will become someone who clumsy, rigid, stupid in front of someone i have my eyes on. stupid, right??? YEAH!!! so stupid!!! me, the freely RH, never failed to express the freely me become motionless, speechless in front of him

by the way, enough for now….office hour almost end

Get me out of this hell

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

Get me out of this hell, God!!!

I CAN’T BEAR IT ANYMORE…!!!! I WANNA OUTA HERE !!! ARGHHH !!!!!

Sushi Time

what i did last night, give good result.

yeah…last night i decided to tidy up all my food in the food storage, just to find my seaweed will approach its expired date!!!….end of this month. damn it!!! and there r still lot of them i haven’t used. i dun want them being futile, since i still have many ingredients to make sushi, and they r rather expensive too. so i’m planning to make sushi this coming weekend (even tough i’m rather lazy). oh my…i still have the sushi su, rice, and the nori. but i dun have the ingredients to fill in it. hm..i think i’m plannin to make a traditional sushi which filled by scrabstick, cucumber, and avocado just the same like the last one i made. but somehow, i wanna try a new recipe (still dunno which one to do). i’m thinking of using salmon. but salmon quite expensive, and sounds like i’m gonna lack of money this month…

the thing is… i’ll have friend to eat my hand-made sushi – orish (thanx God, she’s already back) – but it’s just not complete…if only i have no someone special to give it a try….oh…so unlucky. lol

Everyday Journey

In the middle of night here…Friday to Saturday in 10 minutes more. Truly I feel little bit sleepy but still not enough to summon me to take sleep.

Sorry for abandon u (my blog) for so long. It can’t be helped since I have no mood to write recently. Still remember of my cold, lonely, sad Christmas and new year….oh Ghost, they were the first Christmas, birthday, and new year I felt like hell…and

The “Justin Timberlake”

what will u thinking after reading the title???

well, maybe u think “oh, he is the one from N’Sync or he is ex-cameron diaz, he is so handsome, or whatever”

by the way. he is one of celebrity i like. well, maybe the most one. for us, girls who live in indonesia…i always get strange look whether i mentioned him as my idol..i mean, there’s only little woman here who adore him. to think again, i wonder what i really like bout him…hmmm his face (absolutely one of his most good point), but may the most i like is the way he move…his reaction, the way he act upon something. he is really is a gentleman (in my sight now). i still remember that time when i watch Oprah Winfrey Show and he

Lonely

lonely

i dunno why…but this feeling appear again in my heart

lonely, sad, wanna cry louf, feeling wanted by who “i dunno”. maybe some coz i affected by the songs i hear right now (kinda tragedic romantic songs), but i know that i already feel it long before i start listening them. maybe from the begining i start this day…or when i was sitting in da train on my way to office. if u wanna say “oh RH u r wrong why u feel lonely while God always there for u on ur side”…i told ya. it’s not the one. i feel lonely for something else…and i know it’s for a man.

Geezzz…to tell the truth. i really hate to endure this feeling when it is peep up. it is really hurt, absolutely change my mood (mode bad : on), and I have no spirit to do anything else but sleep (coz by sleep i can forget some of it). like now…now is office hour…and i have really really much work to complete, but i just can’t concentrate. so, i choose to split it up here now rather than doing my endless no-end job.

it is really wanna explode…give a big beam. Argghhhhh, why do it have to appear now???!!!

is this feeling gonna end if i have a boyfriend now? i curious to find out, really. but it just too imposible right now. i’ll tell…if i’ve one someday.

RefressIng Soul

today…i feel so tired. it makes me wanna angry to this cruel world. so, to get calm anymore, i open a christian web…and i really attach by one article that publish there. here i copied it , but it’s only in 1 language version, that is my country language “Indonesia”.

SAHABAT TUHAN

Ada seorang bocah kelas 4 SD di suatu daerah di Milaor Camarine Sur (Filipina) yang setiap hari mengambil rute melintasi daerah tanah berbatuan dan menyeberangi jalan raya yang berbahaya dimana banyak kendaraan yang melaju kencang dan tidak beraturan.

Setiap kali berhasil menyeberangi jalan raya tersebut, bocah ini mampir sebentar ke Gereja setiap pagi hanya untuk menyapa Tuhan. Tindakannya selama ini diamati oleh seorang Pendeta yang merasa terharu menjumpai sikap bocah yang lugu dan beriman tersebut. “Bagaimana kabarmu Andy? Apakah kamu akan ke sekolah?”

“Ya, Bapa Pendeta!” balas Andy dengan senyumnya yang

GroSS Dayy. Arrgghh!!! –> entry 2

why is it i decide that now is another gross day again?
hmm…coz i feel sleepy and have no concentrate doing my job all this day. and the root of my sleepiness is not because i study last night. it’s because i read an interesting manga by the title “NODAME CONTABILE” until 2pm. i forced mybody to read it…well coz i think i must release the stress of my failure test

btw, let me explain litle bit bout this manga.
this manga told about chiaki, an attractive musical student that intend to be a conductor and go to europe
to study bout conduct to his teacher back then when he was little boy.
but he can do it since he get obstacle that is he scare to fly. so he can’t ever make it real. realize his fear, he started to doubt continuing his musical study.
while struggle, he meet a very oddball girl (i think) in his school. a girl that very untidy, no attention in studying, hate music score book to hell named Nodame, but 

GroSS Dayyy…ARGH!!!

tonight i only got litle time for sleep. let’s count : 9pm till 00am and 5am-6.20am.
so, the total amount only for 4 and half hour. and it’s all coz i’ve to do task that given by lecturer, and study for the midterm on thursday.
well, i don’t mind sleep late to study for the mid, but to complete task??!! crap!!! i hate it to sacrifice my worthy sleep time.

it’s all coz me dunno that there is a task to be collected tomorrow. i didn’t come to class last week, so as result i dunno anything.
until last sunday my friend call me to ask when will we gather (it’s a group assignment) to complete it.
MAN!!! i really mad that time. how come she told me that on sunday?? i’m busy on that day, and i’m out for all da time. i mean,